Sometimes it is the little things that get
you through the day.
As I get older, my condition declines and I
often have days where I wake up tired, my muscles don’t want to work and
getting through the day is a fight.
Living off of sheer will-power…!
It is on these ‘will-power’ days that the
little details are so important and one such detail for me is my Google Calendar.
The tiredness has definitely increased
since I’ve finished work and it is difficult to distinguish between feeling
tired and lack of motivation. Is the
reason I find it harder to get up in the morning because I really feel tired or
is it just because I know that I do not have to go to work? No longer working, I can honestly say that I
am never bored. There is always something
for me to do, be it cross stitch or reading or visiting with friends, going to
the cinema, watching Syfy or spending time with my family. However my Google calendar has become a very
important part of my daily life. This is
not because I have so many plans I have to write them down for fear I will
forget them. It is because I want to
feel that I have lots to do in my life.
I know that my life is worth while and (I hope!) I am a valued member of
my family and I have some very good friends who want to spend time with me and
I want to spend time with them. However
my Google calendar is a visual recognition of this. It not only reminds me what I’m doing and when
but also reminds me that I do have things to do, there are things for me to get
up for and I have purpose in my life. It
provides written proof that I have ‘things’ to motivate myself for.
I firmly believe that although, without my
Google calendar, I would be living my life exactly the same, the way in which I
use it definitely improves my quality of life and my confidence. Even though keeping track of what I’m doing is
such a small thing, to be able to see exactly what I have done and what I have
got to look forward to is such an important part of my day and keeps me
motivated.
Tiredness can come in different forms,
mental and physical and it is physical tiredness that affects me. Unfortunately there is nothing I can do. There is no medication and sometimes no
amount of rest will make me feel any better, however the one thing that I hang
onto on the bad days is that there will be good days.
Sometimes the small thing that gets you
through the day can be a lifeline. The obsessive
compulsiveness of a calendar, a partner, watching your favourite film…their
importance should NEVER be underestimated!
